Here we go again

I had another f'king dream. I just woke up after dreaming that we were at home and you would only talk to the kids. You acted like I wasn't even there. I kept wanting to beg you to stay with me and I couldn't figure out what I had done wrong. I ended up punching a whole in the wall.

When I woke up I went to find you. I was almost out the bedroom door when I realized reality.

I have a headache now and I feel like a balloon that is blown up beyond its capacity. My eyes hurt, my chest hurts.